let's see beautiful things

On Sunday is my cousin’s wedding day. She only chose a few people, those she personally want to witness her being committed for life through sickness and in health and for richer and for poorer, etc. etc., to attend her wedding. My cousin and I are like sisters. We feel, understand and love each other in ways that are inexplicable. Thus, I’m one of those lucky and chosen few to see her as the radiating and glowing and beautiful bride on Sunday with a man beside her who is and should be eternally devoted to her. Last year, we were just talking about weddings. I remember it was on December 23, 2008, on my cousin’s (her older brother) wedding also when I asked her if she actually believed that there’s only one person for her in this world, and, in a heartbeat, she said, “Yes! Oo naman!” To be honest, I was quite surprised at her answer and the manner that she said it. You see, at the time, I was unsure if I, myself, will ever get married. If you ask me now, I would say that I hope I do get married. I hope I would be with someone who wants and needs (in that order) to be with me for the rest of OUR life. Having that thought makes me even think harder that I should know the qualities that I would want and do not want my lover, companion and best friend to have. It is serious. Searching and choosing and deciding who that person is IS such a BIG deal.

Oh, my Valentine’s Day last year was my happiest and saddest both at the same time. At least, though, I became genuinely happy on Valentine’s Day.

This coming Sunday, Valentine’s Day will be really special. Because true and destined love will be celebrated. I will be a witness to TRUE love. I will feel all sorts and mixes of emotions. I will see tears of joy. There will be dancing. There will be toasts. There will be couples. There will be love songs playing in the background. Love will surely be overflowing on that day. I will make sure I supply some.

At the end of that day and in the days to come, I would still be sleeping in an empty bed, but it’s all good. I won’t be alone. Someday, someone will be in my bed :) Or, that I will be in someone’s bed somewhere.  For now, the pillow is just fine.